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When I look back now, I wonder about things. Why did I stay with her if it was never meant to be? It seems kind of pointless now that I look at it. She didn't want me, nor did the fates see fit that we remained bonded forever. She loved me. I could see it in her deep eyes. The passion that shone from those pools of light, it was like none I had ever seen before, and I doubt I will ever see again. I loved her…more than anything, but she wasn't meant for me. I was only keeping her for you.
I didn't see it coming, or maybe I just didn't want to. Those very same eyes that hypnotized me with their rhythmic pulse, had a darkness that was blocked off from me. It was meant for you. I felt safe in her arms and I believe that she felt safe in mine. She was always there, through the rough nights and days after. She healed my wounds with her gentle kisses and I healed her emotional torment with my love, but I was only keeping her for you.
The night you came and stole her will be embedded in my mind forever. The way she looked at you…the look that was meant for me and only me. I saw it then, but it was for you, and I would never see it again. She gave it away, to someone else. That night that she walked into the darkness with you was the night that my will to live left me. I realize now, I was only keeping her for you.
I never saw her again, because that was the night, I too left. The night I said good-bye to the one who loved me. The real me…all of me…even the beast within, that all too often reared its ugly head. How could she have done this to me? How? She left me exposed…she ripped my heart out with her hands that had, once before, touched me and comforted me in a way no one ever had before. That night I gave in to the better man and let her go without a fight, because, it was then, that I truly believed myself when I said…I was only keeping her for you.