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Disclaimer: Joss Whedon and the idiots at the WB own 'em not me.
Spoilers- Graduation Pt2 to Welcome to the Hell-Mouth
Author's Notes: Okay I know most of you didn't get to see Graduation Pt2, but being Canadian I did. So there are spoilers for that ep, not many but some.
It's over.
After three years all that's left is the wreckage, and we didn't even say goodbye. It ended with one last look, maybe it's better.
I don't think either of us could have handled a long goodbye. It's also symbolic, after all we've been through we ended quietly.
Maybe it's not the end, maybe it'll never be the end, but for now it's over.
One day maybe he'll come back and we'll be together, but for now that's the impossible dream. The one that will never come true.
Life without Angel, it's seems impossible. He's been my everything, my friend, my lover, my enemy, my confidante, my soul mate.
When I gave him my blood, I wasn't thinking, all I knew is that I couldn't let him die. Not seeing him is one thing, but to never be able to see him again.
I couldn't live with that.
If someone had told me after the first time we met that I'd feel this way, I would have laughed in their face. I never imagined that Cryptic Guy and I would ever learn to be civil, much less completely in love.
I know he loves me, that's why he's leaving. We both know if he stays things will spiral out of control again.
I don't regret it. Making love with him. I know I should, but I don't. It was the most beautiful experience of my life, I'm just sorry for what happened. But I'd rather have had those bad months, than have never been with him at all.
I'm eighteen yet in so many ways I'm experienced more than women twice my age. Maybe it's because I'm the slayer, or maybe it's because I had Angel.
What we had was brief, but so meaningful. He loved me with his entire soul, and I loved him that way too. Completely, 'till death do us part.
No matter where he is that will stay the same, I'm part of him and he me.
Our souls are intertwined, nothing can change true love. Nothing at all, I'm glad, my heart belongs to him, only him.
Forever.
No matter what happens. No matter how much time goes by, how much distance comes between us, Angel and I will always be together.
Until the end of time, for you only have one true love.